Howdy
Posted: Thu Feb 04, 2010 10:15 am
Mornin'I haven't been around on any lists, boards and or pages in a long time. Real life came and bit me in the butt so to speak. LOL I stopped making anytime for myself to take care of real life and I realized that giving up on what I enjoyed totally was a mistake. I have been a Pernell Fan since I was 13 yrs old...2 yrs away from 50 now and I am still a huge fan and still in shock over his death. I have spent the last 2 weeks reflecting on my with being the outgoing fan and then the last 4 or 5 yrs just being a fan. I miss the old me! I miss the fact that I lost those years of all of the conversations I had with other fans and friends. It took his passing for me to realize there is time for this and real life. I have spent a lot of time with my walkman in my ears and him singin to me. Man oh Man what a voice!
When I was in High School my dad had a massive heart attack and being and only child I had no one to help me through the possible loss I might soon face (thank god I didn't loose dad then) and it was Pernells voice that calmed my tears at night when I placed my old tape recorder under my pillow. He helped me in ways that he never knew. I sent a couple of letters to him telling him this but I do not know if he ever received them and or even read them. He's gone now and I will never know.
I am in the biggest fight of my life right now trying to gain total custody of my two beautiful granddaughters and I decided that in order to get through all of this I have to have time for myself! I am hoping to reaquiant (sp) myself with friends from years ago and some new friends.
I am sorry if this sounds like a crazy introduction but if I can't talk to Bonanaza and Pernell fans just really who can I talk to?
Thanks for having me!
Hugs to you all and RIP Pernell you were one in a million!
Kim
Kim. 
to Bonanza Boomers. I think you'll find a lot of members here who totally understand your feelings. have fun, look around. I just activated your gallery account, so all you have to do is click the tab up top and log in once. 
Kim. 
(group hug) to include you and your granddaughters. (Personally, I think anyone could use a Hoss hug, even if he's not their #1 man 'cause Hoss gives really good hugs. So ... here's a Hoss hug 
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and Welcome to Boomers Kim. I hope that you feel you have found a home here. We are a friendly bunch and love talking about Bonanza and our guys.