ML was my 1st and only love starting from a really young age, like maybe 4 or 5 years old, I saw Bonanza and from that moment it's the only thing I watched on TV. My brothers must haave been fans, too, because I can't imagine I came to it on my own at that age, but once I was old enough to start with the Little Joe obsession, that was the end of it.
I had a picture of him who knows maybe 16 magazine or something like that or something like that, and it was taped on the wall by my bed right next to my pillow, so I would fall asleep staring at him. That same picture stayed there until I was in high school. And I remember how mad my parents were when I was in 6th grade and theLittle House pilot was going to be broadcast when we were supposed to go on a vacation and I refused to go so I wouldn't miss the movie. They ended up going without me, the whole family, and they left me at my grandmother's, so I could watch the thing.
Nowadays that's not something that would happen, right? It's not like then when you saw it once and didn't know if you'd ever see it again.
Anyway (this is a long introduction, sorry) I kind of lost him along the years, and I remember when he had his press conference when he was diagnosed because my parents and my brothers all called me on the phone to tell me to watch it when it was broadcast, and then on Johnny Carson, too, and it was a very sad nostalgic moment, and I cried … but the obsession didn't come back until just a few months ago.
Flipping around youtube looking for a song with the word Forever in it (Forever Young to be exact, and I was looking for a Leonard Cohen version) and there on the list of suggestions was the first part of the Bonanza episode Forever. So I had some time to kill and felt nostalgic so why not. And I just fell apart watching the thing. He was so intense in it … it honestly just plain looked real. You know? If I was his wife I would've been heartbroken to watch it, to see him in love with another woman, he just was that kind of real. And gorgeous - don't get me started. Anyway, he started showing up in my dreams again that night. And there he remains.
Like I said in the other thread, my husband doesn't mind because he doesn't know. He just thinks maybe I'm suddenly more enthusiastic about the marriage. LOLOL
Okay, so now I just need to see every single thing ML has ever done ever in his life, and I am just so grateful to the Internet that I maybe possibly can.
And that's my very longwinded introduction.

